This is a topic that no matter what I do stays on my heart and I'm not sure it will ever leave my heart. However writing this has helped to put it to rest. It's basically a poetic letter to my birth mother who I had reunited with several years ago only to have lost her again about 12 years ago. One day I heard something that caused me to come up with the title 'Twice In A Lifetime'. For a year it sat with me. And tonight this is why 'Twice in a Lifetime' had to come. Because most of us lose a parent once in a lifetime but have you every lost them twice?
It's something I will never be able to understand but I trust the good Lord with my tomorrows and I know that one day my birth mom and I will have an eternity of tomorrows.
Twice In A Lifetime
You were so young and free
But soon a prisoner of pain you came to be
The victim of devilish secrets and lies
Adding to the chaos life had gone for you
Then I came into your world small and helpless
You did your best to raise me and the boys
But the devil did everything to mess it up.
No matter what you did he seemed to win
You didn’t see it coming, the day I was taken away
I’m glad I don’t remember that day
Separated for what was supposed to be forever
Alone and confused I tried to settle far away from my home
They said I’d be fine there with the new mother and father
When all I wanted to do was run back to you
But it was no use
The devil had won again
Deep inside I never gave up the hope that one day we’d be together again.
One day after what seemed like a hundred years
Your letters just began to appear
Words cannot describe what I felt as I read each word you penned
Your words sank deep into my soul
All I could do was cry “mom”
Your letters were the salve to heal my hurts
I just knew there had to be a reunion soon
So we made it happened on that eleventh day of June
Together again forever with time for healing,
Time for breaking down and building up,
Times for weeping and a time for laughing
All the days of our lives we had in front of us
Creating memories and replacing time lost
We had it all or so we thought.
A call came in that forever haunts me
Don’t take her from me again I cried
But then moments later you were gone
We were separated once more
I was filled with horror and disbelief
Loneliness and confusion consumed me once more
How could this happen again
Losing you twice in a lifetime was more than I could bear
The only comfort was knowing you knew the Saviour
And one day long after the emptiness settled in deep
I finally called upon the Saviour
to ease my pain and set me free
He lifted those burdens from my shoulders
And left me with a promise
That though you and I lost each other twice in a lifetime
He’s given us eternity to pick up where we left off.
So one day when it’s my time to be called home
We’ll finally have victory and all our tomorrows
Though I lost you twice in a lifetime
I hold on to the promise that we’ll have eternity.