Somewhere?

I love the night time sky. I could sit and stare and marvel at the stars all night. I have a few times over the year. Each time I ponder what Heaven is really like. I sat there one day humming this oh so familiar song :Somewhere Out There and thought that it was a good base for a poem.  (adapted from the 1986 hit song Somewhere Our there by Linda Rondstadt and James Ingram)

 So I began writing about how a room is being prepared for me in the Heavenly Kingdom and one day I'll be there. It's so dreamy, like the way I feel when I look up into the night sky. Yes this idea was brought to life by the 1986 hit song Somewhere Out there by Linda Rondstadt and James Ingram. There maybe one or two phrases the same but  I don't even think it would flow smooth if you sang it. Needless to say it's a great way of thinking about the Lord's Kingdom.

Somewhere?

Somewhere up there

Above the pale blue sky

Someone’s thinking of me and loving me tonight

Somewhere in here I will say a prayer

That I’ll find my way out to Him

Through that big somewhere out there

And even though I know He’s never very far away

He prepares for my arrival and waits upon a bright star

And even though I know I’ll stumble along the way

It helps to think that He’ll come back for me one bright fine day.

Somewhere, somehow His love will bring me through

So we may be together somewhere up there, where dreams come true

Somewhere up there in the dark night sky

Someone prepares a room for me 

And makes it all just right

Somewhere down here

I’ll keep preparing myself for Him

Praying, studying, sharing His word

Even though I know how very hard 

It will be to keep evil from lurking near

My faith will stab it with God’s spear

And somewhere, somehow our love

Will bind us together

Until one day when we join each other

Way up there somewhere.

1Corinthians 2:9-10 However, as it is written: "No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for  those who love him." but God has revealed it to us by his Spirit. The Spirit searches all things even the deep things of God.

She wants to Leave

In follow up to Frozen In Fear, I wanted to write something that was a bit more central in nature when it comes to abuse. One of the aspects of an victims life is the fear of leaving. It my be hindered by fear, embarassment, no self worth or poor self image. It could be that we just become so broken we don't feel we can be fixed so rather than live a life of painful memories, we stay and continue living in pain. It's easy to say why doesn't the person leave the situation. I never understood it either until these truths about my own experience came to light. You just live day in and day out, thinking it will be over and the person will change. You hope for this and then it happens again and again until you internalize it so much that you believe what the abuser is saying and you do what you are told to minimize the strikes. I didn't stand up for myself, I let myself cowar. I am hoping that through these poems, I can give victims what they need to start turning things and getting out. It's not an easy thing to do but with the strength of The Lord you can beat this! Reach out to The Lord today and ask him for help. I pray today as I post this and  you are reading, that God is there waiting to meet you and take your broken body and soul and mend it as he did me.
Please sisters and brothers if there is anyone you know who is or could be suffering abuse share this with them. Pray that they see the light and realize they are worth more than they know.

She Wants to Leave

Lost in a world

abused and abandoned

no where to go

no value or worth

or so she thought       

A life of solitude and scars

just didn't get her far

She wants to leave 

but can't seem to get through that door

She's worth so much more

All she knows is to listen to all his demands

or suffer the power of that monster's  hands

caught in a bondage of abuse

she feels she is of no other use

She wants to leave 

but can't seem to get through that door

She is worth so much more

Escape she must from his disgusting lust

She cries herself to sleep

 quietly of course

wouldn't want to wake that creep

and make it any worse

Tonight is different that the rest

She vows she will not rest

until she's free of him

Who can she call on?

She wants to leave but can't seem to get through that door

She's worth so much more

A light shines bright

and diminishes the night

She sees a hand reach out from the dark

and grabs hold with all It's might

He's here to save

and asks her to be brave

She wants to leave 

and through that door she goes

no looking back will she do

cause she knows He will bring her through.

Frozen in Fear

Proceed to read with care and caution.....We hear about this, we see this, some of us even experience this. This is one of the worst acts against any human being, not only violates, rights but leaves lifetimes of scars not just for the victim but for families too. This thing I speak about is abuse. It is done in so many ways, I'm not going to mention them all. There is the most common physical or sexual abuse but what about the unseen abuse. Ya, you know the verbal, emotional, mental abuse. The kind where the victim is told there aren't worth much, or mind games are played or ones emotions are used against them. It's ugly but it happens. It happened to me. I endured it for 8 years before I was free of it. It's taken me this long to face the hurts and crush the lies he told me. It was only through the Grace of God that I was able to face my past hurts and set myself free of this bondage. These chains were attached to me and kept me from opening my heart truly to The Lord. But not only that they kept me from seeing who I really am. This past weekend, I received the peace and the know how to set me free and forgive myself for letting me get into that situation. I had forgiven, my abuser but I never forgave myself. This time has come. I stand here free of the hurts, lies and scars that I've held in my heart all this time. After I had discovered this on my heart, I wanted to let my feelings flow out and be put to words. So I wrote a poem about it. Everything came flooding back of what I felt during that time, only this time I'm on the outside standing and watching and feeling, the anger, the sorrow, the lost, the worthlessness etc... Writing this helped chase all that away. After pondering on it for awhile I prayed and asked The Lord what should I do now with these words. He answered me by telling me it's time to share my story. So here it is in a nutshell. I'm sharing this tonight in hopes that somewhere out there I am words of encouragement for any person who is suffering any kind of abuse whether is is physical or emotional or mental. It's wrong and you need to get out. Stop sitting there feeling like you are worthless cause you know what YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL and there is the ONE who can help you to feel that again. Turn to The Lord for He sees you as nothing but BEAUTIFUL. both men and women. Tonight's entry is quite graphic. I welcome comments or thoughts. IF anyone knows someone suffering abuse pass this on to them. May God Bless your Healing, whoever you are.

Frozen in Fear 

She sits frozen in fear

As he comes near

His eyes are black

His face is tense

Chills crawl up her back

Not a muscle she will move

His anger is at it’s worst

With every step he takes

She hopes it will improve

What will she witness today

Knife roulette?

Knuckle Rub?

Through his glare he’ll ask her again

What she liked to see

Still frozen in fear

She’ll mumble her words

In hopes he won’t hear

Then comes the lies

She’s told she must believe

He tells her that only he loves her

So she will not leave

She’s nothing without him

and her life will be so grim

He says

Fearfully obedient in his arms she settles in

As he gives her a wicked grin

OH the power he has over her

Night draws near 

So does fear

What has he in store for her tonight?

Loving and sensual

Or forced on her with all his might?

How dare she put herself through this?

Does she think this is wedded bliss?

Quick there’s the door

Wait he’s angry and coming back for more

When will this end?

She thought he was her best friend

What has she done?

She must not be loving him enough

Why else would he do this stuff

She knows there is better but cannot seem to leave

For she is frozen in her fear 

with the lies she’s told to believe

As days go by she learns to hide

all within her heart

cause she’s pledged to stay with him

till death do they part

oh the nights she cried

but could never leave

once she tried

yet again the lies he did tell

To keep hold on her

did she not know

to safety she could go

she began to pray for help

little did she know

help was already on the way

on that unexpected day in May

he finally set her free

He turned and drive into the night

Releasing her from years of pain and fright

Thanks to the Lord for hearing her prayer

It took oh so long for her to see

That someone else cares

Love is patient, love is kind

Love is what she’d hope to one day find.

My group of Steel Magnolias

The wonderful thing about life is you don't have to do it alone. God sends people into our lives for a purpose. Most times we call them friends, sometimes they are co workers and sometimes they are just people to make life seem not so bad. People can be in our lives for a lifetime or just a short while. One thing I've learned is there is always someone out there for everyone when they need. I've often felt alone and had no one around but in the past few years some ladies have come in to my life and a time when I needed someone the most. We all have different backgrounds but are similar in our stories, strengths and walks with The Lord. We are all broken but mended. We are vulnerable to attacks from the evil one but together we are hard as steel and cannot be broken. Under it all we are delicate flowers. With the strength we draw from each other and God's love for all of us we are the Steel Magnolias. Well ok yes we borrowed the title from the 80's movie featuring a group of amazing , beautiful ladies. The title just fits our little group so well. So here is a mini story about MY Steel Magnolias that The Lord brought into my life to help me with my walk.

Steel Magnolias

Strong and delicate

Hearts of gold

Young not yet old

A group of ladies

He has called together

To fight their stormy weather

For in a bunch they can pack a punch

To the evil that does lurk

They will send packing

That big jerk!

Always will they turn

Their eyes upon their prize

Way high up beyond the bright blue skies

Their open hearts they send up darts

To their lover in the sky

In hopes of snagging he who dwells on High

To serve and love their Lord above is their goal

But often are hated for their role

Yet from High above he pours on strong

Enough love and courage

For the ladies to defend against wrong

He makes them strong like steel 

And beautiful as magnolia flowers

They are the ladies loving Jesus

Diminishing the evil one’s powers

The Steel Magnolias together for

The glory of the Lord

Ladies Loving Jesus.

Deuteronomy 3:24O Sovereign Lord, you have begun to show your servant your greatness and strong hand. For what god is there in heaven or on earth who can do deeds and mighty works you do?

Eye of Heaven

One night awhile back, I looked up into the early evening sky I saw two white dots in the sky. They were perfectly positioned as if they were a set of eyes. I stood and stared for a minute and soon began to feel comfort come over me. I knew in a minute they must be Eyes from Heaven looking down at me. Even a picture couldn't capture this image. I'm hoping these words will. He is everywhere, just stop and take the time to notice, the Lord's beauty sometimes. It does a soul good.

The Eyes of Heaven

The eyes of Heaven shine so bright

each night

the Shepherd with his watchful eye keeps watch

as he strives to keep us safe

though some of us obey

many go astray

though we nothing to fear

  he’ll keep watch with the eyes of Heaven.

 

The eyes of Heaven they see so clear.

They see it all,

when we climb or fall.

They see when we win

and surely when we sin.

All we do is seen by

the eyes of Heaven.

We are never alone

With those eyes of Heaven.

 

The eyes of Heaven

they comfort me,

they follow me,

no matter where I go.

The eyes of Heaven, they keep watch when we go afar

never letting us stray from their sight

those beautiful eyes of heaven

OH they shine so bright!

 

Psalm 139:7-10 Where can I go from you Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence? If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths you are there. If I rise on the wings of the dawn, If I settle on the far side of the sea even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast

Live for Today :) !

So many of us worry about tomorrow but we forget to live today. Everyday the Lord pours out his blessings but most of us miss them. It's hard in today's world to let go of worry and live just today but we need to try. Live in this moment right here, right now. If tomorrow never comes are you filled with peace and love today? Despite your circumstances cast your worries to the Heavens, you may find you are blessed more than you can imagine.

Living for Today

We say so often: Live for today ‘cause tomorrow may never come.

But what is tomorrow?

Is it another chance to win big?

That promotion you’ve been waiting for?

The I’m-getting- lucky- day?

Tomorrow is none of the above

Tomorrow is His promise that He’ll be back

It’s one more chance to live eternally

One more crack at getting it right and being saved

Tomorrow will always be there

The question is:

Do you have what it takes for your tomorrow if the Lord comes today?

Have you asked for forgiveness?

Have you opened your heart to Him alone?

Have you shed your skin of sin for your Heavenly cloak?

It’s all you need for tomorrow

So if The Lord comes today will you feel sorrow?

The Lord is always to give you what's needed for today

Why start your day without?

For to live in daily doubt

will steal from away

All His blessings meant for you.

Revelation 21:6-7 He said to me “It is done. I am the Alpha and the Omega, the Beginning and the End. To him who is thirsty I will give to drink without cost from the spring of the water of life. He who over comes will inherit all this, and I will be his God and he will be my son.

LIVE LOVE LAUGH!

After hearing a sermon from a guest speaker at our church, based one these three things: LIVE* LOVE<3 LAUGH:) , I really thought about what those 3 words mean to me. This is what I came up with.

Live, Laugh, Love

Lifetime I’ve searched

In my heart for purpose, worth and 

Very much for someone to share

Everything I have and am

Little did I know

A purpose for me was already here

Unmistakably, completely, amazingly

God has had a plan for me

Heaven’s call for me

Leaves me feeling full

Of hope and admiration

Very much for forgiveness, mercy and

Everlasting salvation.