She wants to Leave

In follow up to Frozen In Fear, I wanted to write something that was a bit more central in nature when it comes to abuse. One of the aspects of an victims life is the fear of leaving. It my be hindered by fear, embarassment, no self worth or poor self image. It could be that we just become so broken we don't feel we can be fixed so rather than live a life of painful memories, we stay and continue living in pain. It's easy to say why doesn't the person leave the situation. I never understood it either until these truths about my own experience came to light. You just live day in and day out, thinking it will be over and the person will change. You hope for this and then it happens again and again until you internalize it so much that you believe what the abuser is saying and you do what you are told to minimize the strikes. I didn't stand up for myself, I let myself cowar. I am hoping that through these poems, I can give victims what they need to start turning things and getting out. It's not an easy thing to do but with the strength of The Lord you can beat this! Reach out to The Lord today and ask him for help. I pray today as I post this and  you are reading, that God is there waiting to meet you and take your broken body and soul and mend it as he did me.
Please sisters and brothers if there is anyone you know who is or could be suffering abuse share this with them. Pray that they see the light and realize they are worth more than they know.

She Wants to Leave

Lost in a world

abused and abandoned

no where to go

no value or worth

or so she thought       

A life of solitude and scars

just didn't get her far

She wants to leave 

but can't seem to get through that door

She's worth so much more

All she knows is to listen to all his demands

or suffer the power of that monster's  hands

caught in a bondage of abuse

she feels she is of no other use

She wants to leave 

but can't seem to get through that door

She is worth so much more

Escape she must from his disgusting lust

She cries herself to sleep

 quietly of course

wouldn't want to wake that creep

and make it any worse

Tonight is different that the rest

She vows she will not rest

until she's free of him

Who can she call on?

She wants to leave but can't seem to get through that door

She's worth so much more

A light shines bright

and diminishes the night

She sees a hand reach out from the dark

and grabs hold with all It's might

He's here to save

and asks her to be brave

She wants to leave 

and through that door she goes

no looking back will she do

cause she knows He will bring her through.